HAPPY

i think i can truly say that i am pretty happy with my life right now.  this is something i have not been able to say in a very long time.  i started my new job 3 weeks ago... shockingly enough, i really enjoy it.  why is it different, you might wonder?  for one thing, they really need me. unlike my last job, where i twiddled my thumbs and cruised facebook all day,  i'm occupied more than most of the time, and that feels f-cking amazing!  i'm appreciated for my knowledge, and experience.  

the girls started "school." and to my unending relief, they love it.  i don't know what i pictured in my head... visions of tears stained cheeks, major tantrums, and sleepless naptimes.  bc3 was supposed to attend school with them for the first 3 days, but by day 2 they kicked him out.  the girls were adapting better than expected.  they even have their first "boyfriend" named stefano.  

some other changes.. we're eating every night as a family, home cooked meals by bc3- no more last minute calls "what do you want?  i don't know, what do you want... let's get takeout."  i get home every night on the 5:44 after a productive day.... a productive day is also had by the husband while the girls are in daycare.  we plan our meals, plan our days, plan our weekends, and we're spending time together.  we have date nights, which takes us away from the girls, and lets us appreciate them all the more.  i spend every available second with them, in the moment, present and accounted for, knowing that it all matters.  there is a nice unstructured structure to our lives now.  we work when we're supposed to work, and play the hell out of the time when we're not. we have great friends and family, and i appreciate them more than i ever have.   

what we had to do?- we took the box and dumped out all the crap, then put it back in a different way.  only then did we realize that everything we needed was right there to begin with.